Raised Right, Chose Wrong

So before we dive deep into some of the obvious situations that led me down the path of some wrong decisions. I want to say that I did not come from a broken home or family that did not love me like some of my peers I seen in the hood or people I have met in my life. I had a strong and smart and intelligence,loving, outstanding single mother who made sure her kids where taken care of roof over there head food on table and good and clean cloths and in any activities she could put us in. She worked hard went to college and walked across the stage to get her degree. I was still young but that independent strong woman who I’m blessed Allah let me be born to did not let anything get in her way to make sure her family was always taken care of. We all know no matter what in life there are hardships and difficulties but that did not stop my mother from making sure her boys had a good life. There was no wild party’s or drugs in my household she worked hard and taught us how to be real men the best a unbelievable wonderful single mom could. So you will hear people say well when there are not two parents in the house that’s why these kids grow up in a life of crime. Well that could be true for a percent of People in the world but truth is whether its one parent or two parents foster parents or grandparents when we all start growing up we pick are own choices. now before you start criticizing yes it’s good to have two active parents in are kids life. What I’m saying rite now is look at the million of people who have had one parent and lead some of are most important jobs in the world. They are doctors, rocket scientists, politicians, garbage men and computer techs. What I’m getting at is just because I had a single parent does mean I had to choose some of the wrong things I did in life. I didn’t have bad role model’s or friends or family that pressured me to do anything I didn’t want to. Obviously when we grow up we look at things and start likening what someone else was doing or saying. The choices I made was what I liked and with that led me to obviously to being in prison , isolation of people I love and losing the trust and faith of family and friends and my community. I had so many opportunity’s but I put it in my own mind that what I’m doing is keeping my family and people safe and that as I got older I made sure no matter what side of town,city , state or country I was in no body was going to hurt my family or the people I love and as time went on I did not know how I was mentally destroying myself and the people who loved me watched as I destroyed my life. I had people who reached out to help but when your so far gone I told myself if anybody seen weakens in me they would punish me my family and people who are with me and I was not going to allow any of that. so ultimately my ways and doing things I wanted to and not changing or seeking help like a lot of people in my situation have or have had it way worse then me and live successful lives. I’m lost alone and in prison for the rest of my life which is all on me and no one else but me. I’m never looking for sympathy or somebody feeling sorry for a grown man what I share is to hopefully help someone else that has problems weather young or old that its OK to seek help before its to late.
well I want to thank everybody who took there busy time out to read this and hopefully share this to encourage one another and until next time Allah willing.