The Mind of a Man Behind Bars

Hello everyone I want to thank everybody who took time out to read this and be a part of some positive and real conversations from a Prisoner. So I want to see what are some emotions and Thoughts do people in society think prisoners think about and do you think we have the right to have certain emotions and thoughts?

So I will give you some thoughts and emotions I had when I was First coming to prison up until now and these might be some of the same emotions and thoughts other prisoner’s could have.

My first thought was This can’t be real this is some mistake. I was mad ,sad , lost my mind it was completely blank I could not comprehend what was being told about me. As things unfolded and I found myself in a prison cell I felt rage ,heartbroken sick to my stomach. These are just a few when I first got sentenced and locked up.

so let’s fast forward to some years later up till now how my thoughts have grown to understand that I’m a grown man and everything that has happen was of my own actions and my own doing. I feel remorseful for all my actions and the hurt I have caused. I’m more calm and work day by day and second by second to work on my mentally.
I left my kids my family everybody I said I loved I left them because my choices in life.
It still hurts losing my fiancé she was the greatest woman ever to accept me for me.
The worst of it all is a family lost loved one’s and I will forever be remorseful for that.
I get told I will never come home you should of thought about your family before you got locked up. You will be lonely and never have anyone to hold you down in prison. The world and society is better off with out you.
Well one thing when you tell someone those things who has accepted there action’s and do there best to hold there head up and become a better person that we mentally tell are own selves these things and sometimes even worse but some of us really work hard to show society that my actions are mine and my troubles are my own and I will never give up to be better a person and work on to show society that I would like to be home and if I don’t I will always work on being better and pray I can motivate the next generation to be better then me and some things they hear and see in this world and stand on your own and don’t blame no one for the things we chose do in life.