Heart Failure

When I was younger it was pure
tribulations helped that ship sail,
holding my dying friend at only 14
was the first time my heart failed,

Taking the bullet altered my breathing
but couldn’t compare to loosing a child,
awake but watching my dreams shatter
was enough to turn a tamed boy wild,

The love of my life left me abandoned
after we vowed through thick and thin,
knowing someone so close could harm me
how could I ever attempt to love again,

My mother passed away so young
another wound that just won’t heal,
my heart will suffer a altered function
till I collapse or the day I’m killed,

Imagine living a troubled man
disguised on a earth that’s really a Hell,
Day to day getting by on hope
but really just waiting on my heart to fail.